Life must go on

Honestly, I feel like I'm in a mountain top while I was writing this. Many things are bugging in my mind. I was absent for many days already. I'm anemic. I admit that I was very irresponsible in using my cellphone and the use of computer. The reason why I lack sleep. There was a time I tried to talk to the guidance counselor because I have no one to talk to. I blamed my teachers for not coming to school. Hunger was paired to the frustrations I had.
I thought I was losing my mind for the past few days. My mind is on a limbo. I keep on thinking and my mind couldn't rest that's why I had insomnia. I thought it was schizophrenia. No coordination, my speech isn't clear, I forget things and I was acting like a child.

I love my parents very much specially my mom. I haven't proven that yet since I'm still a very dependent seed. I showed my love to people through letters, hugging, handshake. I inspire them but then for myself, I haven't instilled it.

There's no assurance that I could still be given a chance to go back to school. Now I realized the quote, " “You never get a second chance to make a first impression”. Sandra, a friend I haven't seen yet. She asked me, about second chances. All of my answers are opinion. I haven't applied this in my life yet, "Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not unto your own understanding".

GOD, "I know your plans for me". Please help me. Protect me.